Kids

How do you decide if you want more or not? When Josh and I got married, I still wasn't sure if I wanted any... but, we didn't do anything to keep from having any either. Now, I'm not sure if I want anymore at all. Part of it is the money situation right now. It's hard enough just being us 3 and Josh is the only one bringing in any money. In Jan I'll be starting school so I don't want to interrupt that again. I don't know how to describe how I feel about it though. Part of me says I don't want any more period, then part of me says I'll have another one later on when Josh decides to grow up. I feel like he's my 2nd child. He goes to work, comes home and just watches tv, or he's on the phone for hours. So I end up doing everything. Well, mostly everything. I do enough to keep the house looking decent, I guess. I'm tired of trying to keep it spotless when he doesn't help out at all. Tonight, I've been on and off the computer and he's been sitting in there chair watching tv (so he says to me "it's your turn to deal with you, you haven't done anything with her all night") Makes me feel like I'm the bad parent. But every time Fallyn tries to get up in his lap he'll let her up but she's not even there a full minute before he's putting her back on the floor because she won't sit still or for whatever reason. It's really annoying and it really upsets me. She's such a daddy's girl and wants to be in his lap, yet, she can't sit still.... but he won't try to make her sit still either. He just gets fed up and puts her back on the floor. Then she gets mad, then he gets mad cuz she's mad. UGH!!! I just don't know what to do. I mean I'm not planning on having another one anytime soon but I don't want them too far apart either. I actually was hoping to have another one after Fallyn turns 3. So that would mean getting pregnant sometime after June 2010. I'm really not sure I want to do that now though. I keep telling him that I don't want to have anymore and he says "well, you can't have just 1"... um, yes I can have just 1 lol. and if it comes down to it, I will only have just 1!

You know you do kinda look like Eryka Badu...

So, I'm sitting at DQ with Fallyn, waiting for a friend to show up. There is a black couple sitting behind me. I'm guessing they're on a first date, or long lost friends... idk.. Anyway, I over parts of their conversation.... Something about he needs to have a ring on "this" (I'm guessing she pointed to his key chain) because he's married to his car....
he says "Yeah I'm pretty much married to Eryka"
"Eryka?!"
"yeah, I've always been a fan of Eryka Badu. I love her music."
"You do!? Really? You know, you do kinda resemble her.. like in the face."

Seriously? Who says a guy resembles a female?? Was this supposed to be a compliment or just something stupid she let nervously slip out?

Either way, I thought it was quite amusing and thought I'd share my amusing little moment.

Christmas time's a coming...

So I better email Josh a wish list. lol. He likes to wait until the last minute to shop. He's good about hiding it though. The first year we were married he got me a big area rug that was kinda zebra print but was more the color of a tiger.... weird, but I loved it, and it matched the futon that I now despise... anyway.. my stupid dog ended up eating it when he was a puppy so I don't have it anymore but I don't even know when Josh went shopping for it. We had gone to Iowa for christmas and didn't have our christmas until we got back home. (we were in Kansas then) So, I let him open his gifts and then he's like ok I'll be right back... He goes outside and opens the trunk of his car (the tbird) and he pulls out this rug and a bunch of other stuff he got for me. I was so surprised. I had no idea. It was funny though. But this year most of the stuff I want is off of ebay. So if he wants it here by christmas he needs to be ordering it soon. And I have no idea what to get him this year. He pretty much as everything he needs... maybe some new tools so he can change the spark plugs in his truck... idk.

We're going to Iowa again this year but we'll be here on christmas day. I guess we're leaving the day after christmas... I think... and then driving to Iowa. fun fun. I just hope Fallyn doesn't get too cranky. But now we know how to keep her occupied. I just need to figure out a way to get her to keep headphones on so she can watch the movie with sound. I'm not listening to madagascar2 the whole way to Iowa! lol.

Weird dream

This morning I had the craziest dream. Josh and I had motorcycles. His, a brand new Yamaha YZF R1 (which is a bike I would kill for lol... especially in the red color.. mmmm.) anyways... His was black and grey. clicky. I had an older model Suzuki GSXR 600. White and pink... kinda like this one. Anyways... Josh and I are driving along somewhere near my "hometown"... in my dream my hometown wasn't really my hometown.... but I know that we were somewhere in Texas... We stopped at a motorcycle shop, for who knows what. We parked our bikes on the side of the building where other people had theirs. We were inside maybe 5 minutes and came back out and our bikes were gone! OH NO! Instead of calling the police right away, we ask the manager if we can watch the surveillance cameras to see who stole them. I know, we're idiots. Well, the guy ended up not having cameras on that side of the building. So we went to gas station next door and luckily they had one pointed in that direction... it's weird how they just let us watch them lol... We see the guys who took the bikes, don't know who they are but somehow we figure out they're headed to Montgomery... Montgomery, Texas... not Alabama. Wha???? Why on earth would they be heading there? We found out through one of the guys at the bike ship we had stopped at, that there was like a trading post for motorcycles in Montgomery. So, we call down there and ask if they have these two bikes down there. They say yes and you can have them back but you have to pay such and such fee and all this crap.. ok whatever we'll pay it... So we hop in our car, idk how it got there since we were on the motorcycles, and we head down there. We get there and the bikes are gone. Apparently the retard that we talked to traded the bikes before we got there and they were now headed to Mexico... about that time my alarm went off and woke me up lol.

I've been wanting a bike for some time now... Always, always, always been a fan of the Yamaha YZF. I've always wanted a black one... but everyone and their grandma's dog has a black bike... so then in 09 they came out with that red color.... so yummy. I love it. But, now after my dream, I kinda would rather have a white one... with either some pink, red or purple on it. Not as much as in the pic above of the pink bike. But mostly white with a little bit of color. Hmm... I really need to get a job lol.

It's been a while....

It's been a while since I've posted anything so I figured I would find something to write about... My life is pretty boring and basically the same thing everyday. During the week, I get up, take Fallyn to daycare, come home and clean the house, pick Fallyn up from daycare... on the weekends, we usually sleep in as late as Fallyn will let us, then I'll sit around on the computer or on the couch in front of the tv. This past weekend/holiday I swear all I did was sleep. Thanksgiving was awesome. We went to Josh's co-workers house and had lunch/dinner then proceeded to get drunk lol. Well, before I ever started drinking Fallyn started to become a brat and was destroying their house. Josh was outside on the phone with his grandfather and I got tired of chasing Fallyn all over so we left. We were home just over an hour before the guys decided they wanted me to come back over. So, Josh came home and we loaded up the play pin and the kiddo and we went back over there. Fallyn sat in her play pin in the living room watching Madagascar 2. We watch that movie almost every night! She loves it!! Around 9, her usual bedtime, we put her in the spare bedroom in her play pin and she fell asleep. I drank a couple of glasses of wine and then the weirdo's showed up. Jeff, a gay guy, who is actually pretty cool. We met him on Halloween night. Some chick named Ashley that actually looks similar to Ashlee Simpson, and her boyfriend. The boyfriend didn't stay very long. After he left things got a little weird. Ashley just started to make me uncomfortable I guess... It kinda reminded me of high school parties. You know, the kind where all the football player invite the cheerleaders and other *cough* "sluts" and proceed to get them stupid drunk and take advantage of them... Well, none of that happened, at least not while I was there. But it just reminded me of that. I've never really been much of a drinker... usually the DD. I was the one that wanted to make sure everyone made it home safe. I actually left my boyfriend at a bar once to take my best friend home because he was totally wasted. My boyfriend had a safe ride home with him there at the bar. Kyle didn't. So, the only time I ever really drink is when I don't have to go anywhere and I'm here at my own house.... Wow, I got stuck on that too long lol...

Tonight we went out to eat at Ryan's. Kinda like a Golden Corral but the nasty version. The closest Golden Corral is like 45 min away and it was getting too late to drive over there. So, we just went to Ryan's. OMG I swear eating out of the dumpster in the back lot would have been cleaner and the food probably would have been warmer. It took over 5 minutes for us to get our drinks. Josh waited over 10 minutes for them to restock the lettuce so he could have a salad. The food, which is never great, wasn't very warm at all. The floor felt like it had grease or something all over it. If you weren't careful you would slip and fall. When I went up to go get some fruit, there was a roach in the whipped cream. It just made me want to vomit. I was already finished eating by this point and I just wanted to get out of there. The only thing good about it tonight was the room temperature was just right lol.. It wasn't too cold or too hot. I called the 1-800 number on the receipt and did the automated survey thingy and made a complaint. Ugh but I don't think we'll be going back any time soon.

Cleaning out my closet

So, I'm sitting here trying to figure out what I want to eat for lunch and this brilliant idea pops in my head... What if I sell some of these clothes on ebay!? I'm cleaning out my closet and planning on donating them... but what if I put them on ebay.. the nice things of course ;) Some of the stuff, I bought and then didn't like it so it's still fairly new... *sigh* I don't think I have the patience for it though... Josh was telling me a while back about some woman that was a dr or something, but made more money by becoming a wholesaler and selling clothes on ebay.... idk.. much to think about.. The clothes are just sitting in bags in my bedroom right now. Soon, they'll be out in the garage where they'll probably sit for another year. I've had all of this stuff bagged or in boxes at some point waiting to go in a garage sale... but that's never happened. I think it'll just be easier if I donate them....

No, it's like my eyes are drunk....

So, this post is going to be VERY random... I just have a lot running through my mind right now. For starters I have a pimple under my nose... you know where your septum meets your upper lip area.... yeah... right there... And it hurts like a bitch!!

I'm thinking about going to school for business administration. But I don't know for sure yet. I was planning on going to cosmetology but the thing keeping me away from that is being on my feet for long hours. I already have problems with my legs... But, that's the only downfall. I was thinking about doing business admin before we left San Diego but, I was waiting until the post 9/11 GI bill came out. (it's similar to the GI Bill but it's different) So, I didn't get to go while I was there. Now we're in Alabama and there's a few different schools that I've been looking at. One of them I'd have to drive 40 minutes to get there. Another one is actually here in town and the other offers online classes and it's only 60 credit hours instead of 64 or 65. I know it's not like that's a big deal but I don't want to be taking a bunch of ridiculous classes. I guess I have about another month or so to figure it out.

Josh has been gone for just over 24 hours now and I'm bored out of my mind lol. Yeah he pissed me off before he left but I got over it.... I always do. I don't know why he waits until the last minute to do anything. Although, I usually do the same thing. But I don't think I do it as often as he does. It sucks not being able to talk to him right now though. He's in Georgia doing some annual training crap. Poor things are in cabins that he says could fit in our living room and it sounds like the bedding is about the size of our bathtub lol.

The reason behind the title is because my eyes have been bothering me a lot lately. I feel like everything is just really bright or I have to squint to see anything... but the thing is, I see just fine. My eyes just don't hurt as bad if I squint... it's weird. I just had my eyes checked not too long ago and my insurance only covers annual eye exams... It just started Sunday morning though. Well, that's when I noticed it I guess. It just hasn't gone away since. Maybe it's because I'm staring at the computer screen for hours a day. I know I can't see worth shit to drive at night though. I'm so used to driving in San Diego where there's lights everywhere and you don't hardly need to use your headlights, even at night. Now I'm out in the country and it's so dark and I can't see anything. I try not to drive at night if I don't have to. My eyes just feel swollen and like they would if I was drunk... only I'm not drunk... it's just my eyes...

angry post *viewer discretion is advised* lol

WTF are you gonna get mad at me because I can't reach something in the closet while I'm trying to help you find your shit. You were the one that put that damn futon in the way... I WANTED IT OUT OF THE HOUSE!!! NOT JUST OUT OF THE LIVING ROOM!!! Anyways... You're on your own for the rest of the day.... find your own shit..... if you wouldn't wait until the last minute to do any of this you wouldn't be rushing to get it done, now wouldn't you?

Today has been an odd day...

I woke up late and got Fallyn to daycare late... oh well. So she missed pics with the pony.... we've got other horses she can take pics with. Plus, I won't have to pay 20 bucks for it. I've got my own camera... I can take the pics myself....

On that note... After lunch I went to the park to get some pics for my photography class. I guess I just wasn't feeling it today... I was bored out of my mind and kept trying to call my mom and she wasn't answering... So maybe that threw me off cuz she ALWAYS answers the phone. Well, about 95% of the time. So, I was out there for about 2 hours and didn't like any of the pic I took. I decided to head back out after I picked up Fallyn and try again. That didn't work out so well either since the sun was already setting... but here's what I did get....

Ok so this first one I took earlier in the day... I must have missed it.. It is one for class (I think. Haven't decided yet) but if I do use it, it'll be for "leading lines" along with the 2nd pic.. maybe I'll send both.. hmmmm.....

Now that I think about it, I might use all of these lol. One of my assignments calls for photographing a person in open shade....

Total Suckage

It really sucks when your spouse gets off work early and you're not happy about it. Most people would be. Me on the other hand, I don't like it. He's been sitting in the chair/on the couch since 1:30 this afternoon and won't give me a straight answer about anything. I ask him who won the board, he acts stupid saying "what board?" So I ask him if he's off work or just home for lunch and he says "why, who wants to know?" I WANT TO KNOW YOU FREAKIN IDIOT!! Anyway... I wanted to re-arrange the living room. It's pretty much been the same way since we moved in. The movers brought the stuff in, set it down, and it stayed that way. He asks what I want to do different and I tell him and he doesn't like it... without even moving the stuff to see what it's going to look like, he's already decided he won't like it... Why?? Because his chair won't be directly in front of the tv. OMG it pisses me off. He can't even say "ok, lets move things and see what it looks like, and if we don't like it, we'll move it back." NOOO! He acts like it's just his room and we can't change anything about it. It looks so stupid the way it is. The couch is right in the middle of the room and sitting at an angle towards the corner... STUUUUUPIIIIID!! So, I've pretty much just been avoiding him and the living room since he got home. At least our bedroom is pretty much cleaned up now lol. I just wish he would compromise a little.


another total suckage.... I dropped my macro lens yesterday and broke it :*(

Best anniversary EVER!

Josh and I had our 3 year anniversary today! One of his co-workers came over and watched Fallyn while we went out to dinner. We went to this hibachi grill here in town. It was awesome! I can't believe they even have a place like that in this little country town. The food was so good and the cook was entertaining, even if we couldn't completely understand what he was saying. I wish I would have taken pics but I didn't take my camera and the camera on my phone is kinda messed up. Plus, by the time I thought about it, he was done setting things on fire. lol. I hope we get to go back one day.

After we ate dinner we were going to go bowling but one bowling alley was league night so we didn't go in. We made a stop at walmart to get Fallyn some more diapers and then we decided to head onto post to go to the bowling alley there. Well, we got there right at 830 and they closed at 9. So we just decided to come home. Even though our plans didn't work out and we didn't get each other gifts, it was still the best anniversary ever. And all for one reason..... I WASN'T SICK THIS YEAR!!!

This one is pretty random lol....

So, today is our 3 year anniversary. No special plans though. Just going out to dinner and possibly a movie. Not too sure about the movie. The theaters here in town (2 different ones) only have 2 screens. I wish we could get out on a weekend. There is a drive in about 20 minutes from here with like 6-8 screens.......... OK just made reservations at the hibachi grill in town... yes, I'm multi-tasking :). Hopefully this place is good and I don't get sick. The past 2 years I've been sick on our anniversary. The first year was morning sickness. The second, well, I don't know what was wrong with me. Just had an upset stomach and thankfully I didn't start vomiting until we got to the babysitters house to pick up Fally.

I'm still on the hunt for a job. I wish I could wait until Jan when school starts. That way I can just go to school and get paid through my 9/11 GIbill. They pay for you're housing while you're in school. It sounds nice but I haven't read up on it recently. When it first started in August there were some glitches with people either getting paid too much or not enough. I'm sure by now they've got it straightened out, but I don't know. It sure would be nice to make $900 a month just to go to school lol! It just seems like it's taking so long for Jan. to get here. Classes start on the 19th.


I totally found a new love yesterday! I've seen the commercials on tv about the neosporin lip health chap stick type stuff. It will now be replacing my many tubes of vaseline chap stick. I was constantly applying that stuff and it worked for a little while but then my lips would be chapped again when the stuff wore off. On tv it says that with this neosporin lip health you'll notice a difference in 3 days... well I noticed it last night! I used it 3 or 4 times yesterday, the last time being sometime around 6 and this morning when I woke up my lips were still soft feeling. Yeah, they were still a little chapped but not like they used to be. I also picked up a tube of Maybelline Lash Stilletos that will be replacing my tube of L'Oreal Beauty Tubes Mascara.

I need to quit rambling and get off of here. I need to get ready to go to dinner for our anniversary. YAY! I can't believe it's been 3 years already!

Napoleon Dynamite? Not so much...

Tonight after dinner my husband did the dumbest thing I've ever seen him do. He was trying to be dramatic or something and just ended up backwashing into the bottle of root beer! Remember in Napoleon Dynamite when he throws the bottle of gatorade back really fast and starts drinking it? Well, that's what Josh did... only with a 2 liter bottle of root beer. I have no idea what he was thinking but it's the hardest I've laughed in a long time. He keeps saying "I didn't think it would fizz that much!" Are you serious?!

Pumpkin Patch!!

Sunday we finally made it to the pumpkin patch! It was so much fun. It was the first time I've ever been to one... Fallyn too. She had a blast but she wouldn't make up her mind on which pumpkin she wanted. It was like me with shoes lol. Here's a couple of pictures from our little outing.
These are the two we finally picked :)

lazy day..

So, Friday afternoon I got the my unit's 2 and 3 for school. I was so excited. I tried to start on them last night but was just so tired for some reason. But then at bedtime I couldn't sleep. UGH! I hate that. Even meds aren't helping me fall asleep. So, I started on my classes this morning. I don't listen to the audio tapes (cd's) they send me cuz the Dean reminds me of Ben Stein. So, I just skim through the books and answer the questions on the test. I guess I should start actually reading the whole thing instead cuz the frist 2 tests I've only scored a 90. The sad thing is, it's open book lol. So it pisses me off. But some of the questions aren't answered very clearly in the books so I usually google them and see where that takes me. I've decided I'm just going to be an A- student lol. So after I finished that we were planning on taking Fallyn to the pumkin patch. Well, she ended up sleeping too late and by the time we found where the place was we realized it would be dark by the time we got there. So, we'll try again tomorrow.

This evening we ended up going to eat at Larry's BBQ. The first time we went, it sucked. The food sucked and the service sucked... well... The waitress was just straight up rude. So we had decided not to go there anymore until one day I was meeting Josh at his work to go to lunch. We were talking to one of his co-workers about what all they had just out of the Daleville gate and she was listing them all off and when she came to Larry's we were both like, eh, no. And she asked why so we told her. Well, I guess we just ended up ordering the wrong thing. She said they're pretty much known for their pork and beef. So, we decided to go back a couple of weeks ago. The food was way better and the service was ok. The waitress must have been new or didn't understand what we were talking about. I wanted a chopped beef sandwhich and she was like we have sliced beef... ok whatever just bring me something to eat... Tonight we went back and everything was just right... and the best thing about it, Fallyn actually didn't act a fool!

After we ate, we stopped at walmart to get beer then headed home. On the way, Josh saw a cop and yells out in a stupid voice "Oh no, po-po" and from the backseat Fallyn yells out "PO-PO!" It was the cutest thing. Now she's digging dog food out of the bag and putting in their bowls and giving it to them. It's cute, but she's not supposed to be doing it. And there is dog food all over my kitchen floor lol. *Sigh* I'll clean it later. But for now, it's her bedtime so I must get going.

Finally got my Unit 1 review back!!

So, about a month ago I started taking courses at NYIP to build on my photography skills. I submitted my Unit 1 photo project a few weeks ago and finally got my review back today!! The pics are below... and because I'm an idiot and I can't get the audio player to work right, there is a link to the audio file lol. Now I'm just waiting to get my unit 2 course work. Hopefully it will be here soon!!



















http://www.zshare.net/audio/67256698c66f4f7b/

Glad this week is over!

So, this week I've been sick again. I thought I was getting over it and then Monday or Tuesday it hit again. I'm thinking I now have an ear infection. I'm going to the Dr. in a little bit so hopefully I'll be over this mess soon.

I had a job interview yesterday... I thought it all went well. Still haven't heard anything from the lady. She said she would call this morning and let me know....

ok so here it is 6pm. I'm just now finishing this cuz the computer messed up earlier... The Dr says I have an ear infection in both ears and strep. Totally sucks. I have no fever though. So that's good. Kinda ruins our plans for taking Fallyn to the pumpkin patch tomorrow... We'll see what happens.

And I never got a call back about the job. So, it's pretty much been a crappy week lol.

Whew, my daughter wears me out

So, this morning I wake up. Fallyn is grouchy and ugh, I don't want to deal with it. I was already planning on taking her to daycare this morning so Josh and I could have a little alone time for a little bit today. I get to the daycare and drop her off and as I'm walking out of the main room, I happen to look down by the t.v. and what do I see? OH EM GEE, A SEGA GENESIS!! My first thought is OMG I so wanna play, my second is I wonder if they have Sonic the Hedgehog, then I realize I better get the heck outta here before my daughter realizes I'm still there and starts crying. So, I head home and waste the rest of the day. This evening we all went to my husband's co-workers house to "help" another co-worker work on his motorcycle. He pretty much just sat there drinking beer while I chased Fallyn all over the place. I did have a chance to go out and do my own thing tonight but decided not to since I'm not a fan of dancing or big crowds. Especially with people I don't know all that well yet. I finally got tired of chasing Fallyn all over so I put her back in the car and we went to get something to eat. Poor thing was fussy the whole time :( and I wanted to pull my hair out lol. So, we get food, go back to friend/co-workers place and eat. Then Fallyn decides she wants to try to help with the bike... cutest little thing... but we don't have the money to pay for a new paint job on a bike lol. We decided we better leave before something ends up going wrong. Now we're home. Fallyn should be pretty wore out after all the running around she's done. I know I am from chasing her. But chasing her around tonight was better than just 10 minutes on my manual treadmill... that thing is killer on my shins!!! Fallyn is about to be off to bed and I'm headed to the back porch to spend some "quality" time with the hubby.

My first blog ever!!

So, after 2 weeks or so, I've finally figured out what to call this thing. Thanks for helping me figure it out Brandy :)

Well, welcome to this crazy place called my life. Hopefully I'll be posting more soon. As for now, I'm off to bed since it's currently 12:40 in the morning.