Kids

How do you decide if you want more or not? When Josh and I got married, I still wasn't sure if I wanted any... but, we didn't do anything to keep from having any either. Now, I'm not sure if I want anymore at all. Part of it is the money situation right now. It's hard enough just being us 3 and Josh is the only one bringing in any money. In Jan I'll be starting school so I don't want to interrupt that again. I don't know how to describe how I feel about it though. Part of me says I don't want any more period, then part of me says I'll have another one later on when Josh decides to grow up. I feel like he's my 2nd child. He goes to work, comes home and just watches tv, or he's on the phone for hours. So I end up doing everything. Well, mostly everything. I do enough to keep the house looking decent, I guess. I'm tired of trying to keep it spotless when he doesn't help out at all. Tonight, I've been on and off the computer and he's been sitting in there chair watching tv (so he says to me "it's your turn to deal with you, you haven't done anything with her all night") Makes me feel like I'm the bad parent. But every time Fallyn tries to get up in his lap he'll let her up but she's not even there a full minute before he's putting her back on the floor because she won't sit still or for whatever reason. It's really annoying and it really upsets me. She's such a daddy's girl and wants to be in his lap, yet, she can't sit still.... but he won't try to make her sit still either. He just gets fed up and puts her back on the floor. Then she gets mad, then he gets mad cuz she's mad. UGH!!! I just don't know what to do. I mean I'm not planning on having another one anytime soon but I don't want them too far apart either. I actually was hoping to have another one after Fallyn turns 3. So that would mean getting pregnant sometime after June 2010. I'm really not sure I want to do that now though. I keep telling him that I don't want to have anymore and he says "well, you can't have just 1"... um, yes I can have just 1 lol. and if it comes down to it, I will only have just 1!

You know you do kinda look like Eryka Badu...

So, I'm sitting at DQ with Fallyn, waiting for a friend to show up. There is a black couple sitting behind me. I'm guessing they're on a first date, or long lost friends... idk.. Anyway, I over parts of their conversation.... Something about he needs to have a ring on "this" (I'm guessing she pointed to his key chain) because he's married to his car....
he says "Yeah I'm pretty much married to Eryka"
"Eryka?!"
"yeah, I've always been a fan of Eryka Badu. I love her music."
"You do!? Really? You know, you do kinda resemble her.. like in the face."

Seriously? Who says a guy resembles a female?? Was this supposed to be a compliment or just something stupid she let nervously slip out?

Either way, I thought it was quite amusing and thought I'd share my amusing little moment.

Christmas time's a coming...

So I better email Josh a wish list. lol. He likes to wait until the last minute to shop. He's good about hiding it though. The first year we were married he got me a big area rug that was kinda zebra print but was more the color of a tiger.... weird, but I loved it, and it matched the futon that I now despise... anyway.. my stupid dog ended up eating it when he was a puppy so I don't have it anymore but I don't even know when Josh went shopping for it. We had gone to Iowa for christmas and didn't have our christmas until we got back home. (we were in Kansas then) So, I let him open his gifts and then he's like ok I'll be right back... He goes outside and opens the trunk of his car (the tbird) and he pulls out this rug and a bunch of other stuff he got for me. I was so surprised. I had no idea. It was funny though. But this year most of the stuff I want is off of ebay. So if he wants it here by christmas he needs to be ordering it soon. And I have no idea what to get him this year. He pretty much as everything he needs... maybe some new tools so he can change the spark plugs in his truck... idk.

We're going to Iowa again this year but we'll be here on christmas day. I guess we're leaving the day after christmas... I think... and then driving to Iowa. fun fun. I just hope Fallyn doesn't get too cranky. But now we know how to keep her occupied. I just need to figure out a way to get her to keep headphones on so she can watch the movie with sound. I'm not listening to madagascar2 the whole way to Iowa! lol.

Weird dream

This morning I had the craziest dream. Josh and I had motorcycles. His, a brand new Yamaha YZF R1 (which is a bike I would kill for lol... especially in the red color.. mmmm.) anyways... His was black and grey. clicky. I had an older model Suzuki GSXR 600. White and pink... kinda like this one. Anyways... Josh and I are driving along somewhere near my "hometown"... in my dream my hometown wasn't really my hometown.... but I know that we were somewhere in Texas... We stopped at a motorcycle shop, for who knows what. We parked our bikes on the side of the building where other people had theirs. We were inside maybe 5 minutes and came back out and our bikes were gone! OH NO! Instead of calling the police right away, we ask the manager if we can watch the surveillance cameras to see who stole them. I know, we're idiots. Well, the guy ended up not having cameras on that side of the building. So we went to gas station next door and luckily they had one pointed in that direction... it's weird how they just let us watch them lol... We see the guys who took the bikes, don't know who they are but somehow we figure out they're headed to Montgomery... Montgomery, Texas... not Alabama. Wha???? Why on earth would they be heading there? We found out through one of the guys at the bike ship we had stopped at, that there was like a trading post for motorcycles in Montgomery. So, we call down there and ask if they have these two bikes down there. They say yes and you can have them back but you have to pay such and such fee and all this crap.. ok whatever we'll pay it... So we hop in our car, idk how it got there since we were on the motorcycles, and we head down there. We get there and the bikes are gone. Apparently the retard that we talked to traded the bikes before we got there and they were now headed to Mexico... about that time my alarm went off and woke me up lol.

I've been wanting a bike for some time now... Always, always, always been a fan of the Yamaha YZF. I've always wanted a black one... but everyone and their grandma's dog has a black bike... so then in 09 they came out with that red color.... so yummy. I love it. But, now after my dream, I kinda would rather have a white one... with either some pink, red or purple on it. Not as much as in the pic above of the pink bike. But mostly white with a little bit of color. Hmm... I really need to get a job lol.